Hey guys! This one is a more serious post, but it is a post I think I am ready to make. I am not walking away from you guys, don’t you worry, but I am walking away from things that do not make me happy. And here’s why you should, too.
At the beginning of this year, Netflix put out a series called Tidying Up with Marie Kondo, and while I have never watched the show, I know that the gist is to find the things that make you happy and keep them, while letting go of those that don’t give you that feeling.
When I started reading for fun, I realized that I never liked to leave a book unfinished. I will power through a book, even if I completely hate it, for the sake of giving a book a chance. But that feeling isn’t healthy. Let what I just said settle in for a moment: I literally torture myself by reading books I don’t like for the sake of giving everything a chance. Why should I? Now I have the blog, but I still always have the option to walk away, and I never take it. And that feeling of being stuck continues to weigh heavy on my mind, to the point where negative feelings begin to affect my daily life. That’s not healthy, and I need to learn to walk away.
About 2 weeks ago, I began the process of downsizing, which is HUGE for my hoarding tendency. The hardest thing I have had to do is choose which books I wanted to keep on my shelf and which ones I wanted to walk away from. And while I won’t bore you with the specifics, I will tell you that I got rid of an entire shelf full of books. I did not cry, I did not feel like I lost a limb, and I got rid of books that could make someone else happy. Walking away never felt so good.
As for my life, I have been thinking A LOT about happiness. There are people in my life that I do not associate good feelings with anymore. And while our past may be great, my future should be, too. The biggest lesson I have learned in life? There is no shame in choosing yourself. We associate negative words like “selfish” to that action, but why shouldn’t we be a little selfish? Why should I feel guilty about choosing me? Why should I have to constantly feel negative feelings so that they can feel happy?
A million things change when you choose to be happy. You start to smile more, laugh more, and feel more. Complaining goes down, and positivity goes up. There is no shame in choosing yourself, and there is also nothing wrong with being a little negative. But I am someone who has let negativity eat away at me, and I AM DONE.
So I am walking away. I am walking away from the stress, frustration, and ultimate negative feelings of staying in a situation I am not happy in. I am walking away from the fear of being alone. I am walking away from the fear of missing out. I am walking away from the fear of trying something new. I am walking away.
If you guys have any thoughts or ideas, feel free to leave a comment, find me on the social medias at @elizabooksblog, or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. And as always, I’ll see you all in the next book!